Dangerous Thoughts of an Unordinary Girl
"As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others."
-Audrey Hepburn


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This is a bridge in Paris. You hang locks on it with the name of you & your boyfriend/girlfriend/best-friend then throw the key into the river. So even though the friend/relationship may end, you can’t remove the lock. It stays there forever, as relevance to someone once a part of your life.

Ty and I did this. It was so amazing!

This is a bridge in Paris. You hang locks on it with the name of you & your boyfriend/girlfriend/best-friend then throw the key into the river. So even though the friend/relationship may end, you can’t remove the lock. It stays there forever, as relevance to someone once a part of your life.

Ty and I did this. It was so amazing!

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summerbarefootbluejeannight:

Kills me every time I see it <3

This is how I feel everyday. I was so excited to walk down the aisle and meet you.. I love you forever Ty. You and Me, Always.

summerbarefootbluejeannight:

Kills me every time I see it <3

This is how I feel everyday. I was so excited to walk down the aisle and meet you.. I love you forever Ty. You and Me, Always.

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I cannot believe what you have been through and yet you still smile. You are an amazing person and so strong with everything you have been through. I'm glad you started following me because I need strong women in my life and you are definitely a strong woman.
Answer:

I am always going to be here for you, if you ever need anything! We can even be friends on the “Book”. And thank you. You’re a strong woman to love a Marine. Don’t ever underestimate yourself.

You inspire me to much, You have already traveled the world and lived the life that a person in their golden 50 years has just finished off. I have always dreamed of traveling, but that's not my point, however. I read your story and I started bawling my eyes out. You are such a strong and beautiful young woman, and I admire your strength and courage to keep living life and look on the positive side of things, despite the hardships you have faced. I don't even know you, but I love you.
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Oh goodness, thank you very much! I know it’s sad, and I am definitely depressing about 98% of the time I “Tumbl” (lol), but it’s not just about what the world took away from me, it’s what it gave me at the same time. I got memories, that I’ll never leave behind, and strength that I did not even know I had (and half the time I don’t know that I have it.) We’re strong ladies to love a military man. And even at our weakest, we’re still standing strong!

Anonymous:
Your story is heartfelt. And you are truly remarkable and brave. One day you'll find love that wont replace what you previously had, but another kind of love that will put the pieces back together and make you feel just as wonderful again.
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Well thank you very very much! If it happens, it happens. If it doesn’t, I’m truly okay with that as well. Because I do know what I had, and even though he’s not here anymore, I can still feel it.

Never.

your story brought tears to my eyes. you're an amazingly strong girl and i hope all the best for you in your life, you've got a lot going for you and i'm sure you'll continue to make your soldier and loved ones proud. he'll always be watching over you<3
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Well thank you. And I’m sorry that it made you cry. We just have to take the good with the bad, it’s always worth it.

You are truly one of the most amazing people that I have ever come across. To go through so much, and still come up smiling. I can relate to you, not 100% but still. I have family that is deployed in Afghanistan at this very moment. I have friends, and so many people that I know in the military. My day was completely horrible until you followed me. So thank you. Keep smiling.<3
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Aww, well thank you so much sweetheart! We ladies gotta stick together with support and love to all the men and women out there!! :) You definitely brightened up my day! So thank you!

Haha, I couldn’t stop laughing at this. 

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Isn’t this the truth! 

I wish my corgi wasn’t afraid of the vacuum, so I actually could do this!

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9 years ago today, my brother enlisted in the United States Marine Corps.
To this day I am so unbelievably proud of him. And like he did, I will stand by the Corps. 

I miss my brother more than anything. But he and his best friend died together, doing what they love, defending what they love. Our country, and their families. 

I love you to the moon and back Big Brother. 

stronglikeahurricane:

you all are idiots. The flag doesn’t represent slavery. Good God, please get a history lesson.
Love, a Northerner who doesn’t believe in this flag because it signifies separation of a nation.



Now I&#8217;ll give you a History Lesson. Let&#8217;s begin with this is the flag of the Confederacy&#8230;the Confederate States. The Confederate States believed in Slavery and not taking the right away from them to give it to the Blacks. The meaning behind this is that the Flag signifies Slavery, even though it has now been interpreted into just a flag of Southern Pride. For example, the Swastika used to be a symbol  of Peace. Then the Nazi party used it. Now when anyone sees it, they think Hitler, and Killing Jews. Even though it really means Peace. How many people see a swastika and think Peace? Just like people are still offended to this day of what the Confederate Flag means, not only Northerners or Blacks; but even Southerners. Many people from Mississippi have been fighting to remove the Stars and Bars from their State Flag&#8212;which was one of the biggest Southern States fighting to keep Slavery and Lynchings legal.
Love, a History Major.

stronglikeahurricane:

you all are idiots. The flag doesn’t represent slavery. Good God, please get a history lesson.

Love, a Northerner who doesn’t believe in this flag because it signifies separation of a nation.

Now I’ll give you a History Lesson. Let’s begin with this is the flag of the Confederacy…the Confederate States. The Confederate States believed in Slavery and not taking the right away from them to give it to the Blacks. The meaning behind this is that the Flag signifies Slavery, even though it has now been interpreted into just a flag of Southern Pride. For example, the Swastika used to be a symbol  of Peace. Then the Nazi party used it. Now when anyone sees it, they think Hitler, and Killing Jews. Even though it really means Peace. How many people see a swastika and think Peace? Just like people are still offended to this day of what the Confederate Flag means, not only Northerners or Blacks; but even Southerners. Many people from Mississippi have been fighting to remove the Stars and Bars from their State Flag—which was one of the biggest Southern States fighting to keep Slavery and Lynchings legal.

Love, a History Major.

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Today I realized that I’m graduating college soon. 
And I know that Ty’s gone.. but for some reason, it really hit me today, that Ty’s not going to be there when I walk across the stage. And then I realize, I’m not walking across the stage because he’s not going to be here.

It’s over 3.5 years.

And today I realized, I don’t want to do what I once wanted. I don’t want to go to school anymore. I don’t want to walk in any school and remember that I was too busy to hear that my brother and Ty died. 

I was sick that day. But it was a busy day and I had so much stuff to do.. and her telling me echoes in my head all day. And I just want things to be the way forever ago… if only.

…If only, what? I have to have this conversation in my head, he enlisted, I love him. I wasn’t there. I couldn’t have asked him to stay. If only he was here..

It’s a bad day for me today. I really miss him.

I find this picture unbelievably touching. So many people have done so many brave outstanding things. I&#8217;m proud that this is my heritage and that I stand behind every single one of these brave military men and woman. Always will. Just had to give a huge thank you to you and your family. I am here because of you and your sacrifice. I&#8217;m very proud to be an American.

I find this picture unbelievably touching. So many people have done so many brave outstanding things. I’m proud that this is my heritage and that I stand behind every single one of these brave military men and woman. Always will. Just had to give a huge thank you to you and your family. I am here because of you and your sacrifice. I’m very proud to be an American.

Some important things.

It’s crazy to think that I’m FINALLY graduating college. But now that it’s over I think of what the plans were for when this day actually happened. I will not be walking in the ceremony, but for me that’s best because it would be too quiet anyways.

  1. I’d be married.
  2. Begin having a family.
  3. Get a job/think about College Part 2.

But so much has changed since this has happened. Ty died, I changed, life is just different. But these past three years which have been the hardest years for me, I came to realize some really important things.