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Today I realized that I’m graduating college soon.
And I know that Ty’s gone.. but for some reason, it really hit me today, that Ty’s not going to be there when I walk across the stage. And then I realize, I’m not walking across the stage because he’s not going to be here.
It’s over 3.5 years.
And today I realized, I don’t want to do what I once wanted. I don’t want to go to school anymore. I don’t want to walk in any school and remember that I was too busy to hear that my brother and Ty died.
I was sick that day. But it was a busy day and I had so much stuff to do.. and her telling me echoes in my head all day. And I just want things to be the way forever ago… if only.
…If only, what? I have to have this conversation in my head, he enlisted, I love him. I wasn’t there. I couldn’t have asked him to stay. If only he was here..
It’s a bad day for me today. I really miss him.